Waiting on God's timing!

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock, seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years have gone by and I am still waiting. Waiting for Christmas to come, waiting to go back to Uganda, waiting to get married and waiting to see what God is going to do. I almost am finding myself impatient and anxious because I'm waiting for all of these events to happen and not being patient and trusting God and having faith that this will all happen. 

Lamentations 3:25 says "  The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him." 

Psalms 130:5-6 “I wait for the LORD,  my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.”

We have all heard that saying "Good things come to those who wait." But do we actually wait patiently and trust God and knowing that everything is going to be okay? I don't most of the time but I try! 

I have this countdown app on my iPod which counts down to all the special events like when I'll be able to see Grant again,  Africa and our Wedding but I kept checking that app every 5 minutes and wondering why time is going by so slow. I just want it to hurry up. I then deleted the app because I was tired of waiting and feeling like I was stuck in this machine that made everything stop and that time was going nowhere. 

As I look back on my life, time has sure flown but when I look into the future, time isn't moving fast enough. In just over 2 month, I will be going to Uganda for the third time. In just 8 months, I will be married to the love of my life! It seems like it's an eternity away and everybody keeps telling me that time is going to fly by but then why do I feel like this; feeling like I'm stuck in space or in a slow motion machine? 

I have to live everyday knowing that these special times are coming and I have to make these days count that I'm in right now! Make friendships, work and earn money and enjoy what God has given me right now! 

I am also just waiting to see what God is going to do in my life because I also feel like I'm at a standstill with God. Just waiting for that moment where somebody asks me how God is working in my life or waiting for that opportunity to just feel the Holy Spirit working! I work at a place where I try and talk about my faith but people try and quickly change the subject! Deep down it hurts because I want to live my life for God but things always pop in the way. During this season of life, I'm waiting to see what God is going to do! 

One of my new favorite sayings is "Until God opens the next door, praise him in the hallway." 

Even though I can't really talk about my faith at work, I try and be that Godly example of saying hi to everyone, smiling (I love smiling) and not getting mad. Being that radiant light where God just shines! 

I make sure I pray lots everyday, and even read a verse everyday! I love going to church every Sunday because it's like a charger, I need to be filled up again in order to start a new week full of energy and laughter! 

I have noticed some little blessings everyday that God has given me to just show how much he loves me BUT I am still waiting to see what the next door God is going to open! 

I want to end with a few verses from one of my favorite songs "While I'm waiting" by John Waller. 

"While I'm waiting, I will serve you,

While I'm waiting, I will worship,

While I'm waiting, I will not faint. I will run in the race even while I wait."