Struggling with my self confidence

I haven't always struggled with self confidence till a few years ago. I used to weigh 96lbs and I was healthy and I felt and looked good and over the past few years my weight has started to stick to my body and being 4"11, you can't hide the weight that is being piled on your body. It's so hard to deal with. Some of you may not know but I was 1lb 13oz when I was born so I was a Preemie baby so I think that's why I am so tiny/short. Anyhow, over the past few years my health has kind of spiraled downwards with having cysts in my left ovaries and finding out that I may have hyper thyroid and it can be hard to live with sometimes. A few months I went on the pill because my period isn't regular and I didn't want to have it when I got married but right after the wedding I went off the pill as it was hard for my body. During those few months my body changed a lot. I went up three sizes in my bra, I gained more weight in my belly, arms and face. I have stretch marks on my belly, legs and arms. I feel so uncomfortable in my body! I don't eat a lot of sugar or bread and yet I keep gaining weight even when I am off the pill. I bought a scale (I don't know why I did) and I decided to weigh myself and I just about cried when I saw what it said....I was and still am 155lbs. My hands are puffy so I can't wear my wedding rings. My calves are puffy so I can't wear boots and there are days where I don't even want to get out of bed because of my body. I don't get it. I am hoping to get pills for my thyroid and I am hoping and praying that my weight will slowly drop but....I am beautiful, I am God's daughter and he doesn't make mistakes! We are made in his image, we have to take care of our bodies and make sure we don't misuse it or trash our bodies by giving it unhealthy stuff. 

Girls and guys, you are beautiful/handsome and are made in the image of God!

"You are altogether beautiful, my love; there is no flaw in you." Song of Solomon 4:7

 "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works, my soul knows it full well." Psalm 139:14

"But let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quite spirit, which in God's sight is very precious." 1 Peter 3:4

Understanding your Husband's needs

I got married July 25th 2015 and after we got married, I learned alot of new and different things about my husband and I will always continue to learn new things about him. If we knew everything about each other, admit it, marriage would boring, life would be boring! That's what is so great about marriage, we get to unwrap a new present everyday and and learn something new about each other. It can be scary, embarrassing or can be really neat. We are two completely different people yet we are one. My husband needs attention, he needs to know that I love him and that I am here for him and that I am never going to leave him. He needs that security that everything will be okay.

I don't like to show him that I am worried because then he will get worried and will get stressed and I don't want to see him that way. He needs to know that I am his support, spiritual, physical and emotional. He needs to know that I am praying for him and praying for our marriage and that we will strive to be more like Christ everyday. He needs to know that I will take care of him, feed him, wash his clothes and that I will put Christ first. He needs to know that I love him and that God is our strength and our provider all the time, not just when things are tight but when things are going really well! 

Yes it bugs me if he leaves his socks in the middle of the living room or if he leaves his bowl and spoon on the table or if he leaves crumbs in the bed but I know that he is trying his best, he provides for me and eventually a family and I couldn't be happier to be married to an amazing man! 

Sometimes I feel like I fail as a wife because I say things like "Those dishes can wait till tomorrow, or sorry hunny I forgot to wash your favorite shirt." or I"ll forget to wash the bathroom or when he gets home the  house is a mess and all I felt like doing that day was eat chocolate, cry and watch netflix but then I realize, I don't fail as a wife, I just had a day where I don't want to face the world and I just need to feel God's peace and know that everything will be okay. My hubby is not going to love me any less because I wore pj's all day. In fact, he loves me more because he knows that I am trying my best and he knows that I love him.

I love being a wife and somedays it's a lot of work but yet it's so  rewarding because I know that I am loved by my Heavenly Father and am taken by the most amazing Husband ever!


xoxo
Mikayla Sawyer

I'm a wife

Wow, I can't even describe how amazing being a wife is. I am just going to back up here a little!

On July 25th 2015, I married the most amazing man ever! The week before the wedding was crazy, we had a family reunion, and had family staying with us which was awesome but what really wasn't good was I got sick. I had a nasty cold and a few days before the wedding I lost my voice! That was terrible and the day before the wedding I was feeling not the best but God gave me health for our wedding day! I remember the day before the wedding, getting my nails done, finished setting up the hall, and setting up the church with decorations and then came the rehearsal..I was so nervous but after the rehearsal I was so happy and and confident and I just wanted to get married already.

Wedding day!!

I woke up and and actually ate breakfast, got ready to go down a 1,000 foot waterslide which was tons of fun! When I got back, I got my make-up and hair done, got my dress on and veil. We made it to the church and we got married!! I will never forget the feeling of finally being married :) We went and got some pictures done at the lake and on our way to the hall for the reception we got stuck in a massive thunderstorm which was a huge blessing. The reception was awesome, we incorporated a few African traditions which made me happy! Overall, we couldn't have asked for anything better and we are so blessed by everyone!

Being a wife is amazing, I love making supper and cleaning the house and waiting for Grant to come home from work. There are struggles but with God we can do anything together!

Being a bride-to-be!

I can't describe to you the amazing feeling knowing that you belong to someone! Being God's daughter and then having a man who is after God's heart loving you unconditionally! Ever since I was a little girl, I always knew I wanted to get married and to have a Prince Charming! Then that day came when I got asked an important question,  and of course I said "yes!" My dream is coming true, I get to marry the love of life! Planning a wedding is lots of fun but it can bring tears and eventually it can be overwhelming! As we are are getting married next month, I am feeling very overwhelmed by the fact that I'm starting my life with my man and im
Moving and will be living in a new city!  So many emotions!

Being a bride to be is such an amazing privilege and such a blessing! I am honestly so blessed to be marrying an amazing Godly man! God has truly given me a treasure! Knowing that I get to be a wife and eventually a mom is just another incredible blessing! I pray that we will have a Christ like marriage and that we will have unconditional love for eachother and for our one true love God! I also pray that the excitement we have now to get married that we will have the same excitement for when Jesus comes back to take his bride "us" to heaven to be with him for eternity!  I don't know what marriage is like but I know that it is an incredible blessing from God and we have to treasure it and guard it!

My prayer for all of the engaged couples and even married couples is that you guard your marriage and that you will love eachother unconditionally and keep Christ in the centre of his amazing blessing!

I miss it....

I  was really missing Uganda today. One of my favorite songs came on the radio this morning called "Overwhelmed" by Big Daddy Weave and God sure knows when I need to hear that song because it comes on when I need to hear it. That songs reminds me of how amazing God is and how amazing His love is but it also reminds me of my home in Uganda, Africa. I am so overwhelmed by their love for God as well as their love for us. 

We "Power Team" have been back for two months already and God has shown our team so many things and have blessed us! 

Coming back this time was hard which it gets harder every year but this year was a little harder because as I am getting married this summer, I'm not sure when I'll be going back, the past few years I was able to say "count me in, I'm going next year." Whereas this year, God only knows when or if I'll ever go back which hopefully I do. I couldn't stand living the rest of my life not going back to Uganda. 

There are days where I literally just want to hide from the world because we have EVERYTHING...we have money, food, clothes, houses, cars, jobs and do you know what I see wherever I go? Grumpy people who complain because their apples weren't as sweet as the last batch or they are returning unopened food at because they don't need it or don't like the taste. Really?!  It's rediculous and really sad. I go to a Uganda and do you know what I see? I see people praising The Lord because He has blessed them with a new chair or clean water, even a new pair of pants. I see people who give their guests all the food that they have where if they take it to the market they could sell it for some money but instead they give it to us. Whenever we would go visit a family, they would be singing and praising The Lord because they were overwhelmed to see us and they were so happy because they know that God is watching over them. Yes we see some sad things such as dying kids, kids who can't eat or drink clean water. People who can't afford to get treatment from the hospital, people who live in small tiny huts with 10 kids and only 1 blanket. It's sad but we know that God is doing some amazing work! 

While we are trying to buy the next best thing, someone is trying to buy one banana.  Yes I would like a better camera or I would love to buy a bigger phone but I'm going to be patient and wait for those things, I don't need them, I want them. I'm not going to waste me money on things like that but instead I'm giving my money to God and saving it up for my next trip to Uganda whenever that will be. 

I was in the food court just a few days after I got back and while I was there I cried and I cried because as I was looking around trying to figure out a place get food, I literally was ready to run out of there and hide because there were so many options of food and yet I had just stopped eating the same thing for 17 days which I won't complain because it's good but I was so hurt because there is so much food here yet people there eat the same thing over and over again for years and years, they don't have the variety of foods we have here. 

It's almost a culture shock coming back because like I said earlier we have everything wheras they don't have much! If we brought 5 Africans here, they would probably go in a huge shock because they wouldn't know how to contain themselves and they would feel completely lost. 

As we live our lives, let's be thankful for what we have and not be grumpy people who complains about everything. Let's enjoy life. Remember that when we leave the tap running, someone is dying because they can't have clean water. 

God loves YOU sooooo much!!!

I can't begin to tell you how much God loves you....he made you, he died on the cross for you...he LOVES you!!!

- I am getting the chills right now writing this, God just amazes me sooo much! Does he amaze you? What amazes you about God? Is it the ground we walk on, the beauty in the scenery such as mountains, rivers, animals?

Go look in the mirror, what do you see? Do you see just some person who doesn't think their beautiful or handsome? Do you see a person who has no worthy or who doesn't think they belong in this world, or who doesn't feel loved?

Let me tell you something....God knitted you together in your mother's womb! He carefully put every piece together and he spent time making you!



Psalm 139:13-17 says
"For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be."

How awesome is that?

Romans 5:8 
"But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

Luke 12:7
"Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows"

You are worth more than Gold and God knows your name and what is on your heart. He loves you!!!! 


John 3:16 says

"For God loved so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever believes in him will not die but have eternal life."

Next time you look in the mirror, examine yourself and remember that God made every inch of you! 

7 more days!!!!

Can you believe it that this is the third year I cam going to Uganda?!?! It's been a year since I started this blog and I was writing about the same thing! So much has happened this past year which I won't go into detail because you have either heard it alot or just don't want to hear about my life haha:P Anyhow this year has started really well, things are going well so far. I haven't written a post in a while just because of how busy I am. I am working lots and by the time I get home, I just want to sleep! I have 5 days of work left...yay and then I have to find another job when I get back because in order for me to go to Uganda, I have to quit work and then when I get back and if I still want the job I have to reapply which kind of stinks haha! I know that God has a job out there for me!

I have started to pack and for the life of me, I can't remember how I packed the past two years, oh well...I am almost done! There are 18 of us going, and I am so excited to see what God is going to do on this trip. It is so cool to see how he has worked the past two years. I really don't know what more to write so I will just end it with this....GOD LOVES YOU!


Things to pray for:

-That God  will prepare our hearts for this trip.
-We will all be HEALTHY in JESUS NAME!
- We get everything we need for the trip such as our medication and paperwork etc.


Thank you!

Mikayla :)